Kim Kardashian is Pregnant - And??

Come on, we’ve all talked about her, especially during her pregnancy. But why are we all so obsessed with her body and (often poor) fashion choices while pregnant? I believe there are two sides to it. First, the media’s obsession with her pregnant body and second, how she is dressing herself (I believe as an indirect response to it). 

I think it’s fascinating how much flack the paparazzi is giving her about her weight gain. She’s preggers people! And she’s short and curvy already, so yes, she is going to look like she’s much heavier than the average women. Hell, my mom put on 80 pounds with me! There are certain body types that just put on weight much easier and gain it all over. She just happens to be one of those. So what’s the big deal? Is the expectation that because she’s a celebrity she’s supposed to be skinny all over? Or is it just an excuse to hate her?

If I were in her position, I would have the biggest complex about my body. Which leads me to my second point. Maybe that’s why she is still trying to dress in tight-fitting clothes that she would have normally worn when she wasn’t pregnant (i.e. a tight leather skirt). I do feel for the girl, really I do. Regardless of who she is and who she’s dating, it’s difficult to live your life on such a public stage and be judged constantly. I can’t say I agree with her fashion choices; I think she needs to embrace her new body and basically give the middle finger to people who are calling her ‘fat’. But by either trying to hide yourself completely in a curtain-patterned dress or act as if you aren’t even pregnant with a belt tied tightly around your mid-section, you are showing how insecure you really are about your pregnancy body. And there’s nothing to be ashamed of! This is a time in a woman’s life where she should be able to feel free of judgment but unfortunately, the public can’t seem to get enough of the drama and shit-talking. It’s a shame; let her be happy. 

My Journey - Update 3

Up until yesterday (and I’m sure I’ll have my days hereafter as well) I was cranky as all hell, pissy, upset and pessimistic that I was doing this weight-loss/confidence-building journey, because, who was I kidding? I couldn’t do this! Why do I have to be the one who can’t lose weight? I even told my trainer yesterday that I was this close to skipping his workout and getting a big glass of alcohol (Bridesmaids reference J) and a burger instead. But, I decided that I’d workout and if I still wanted it after, I’d get it. But get this...afterwards, I was so proud that I finished the grueling workout on the beach that not only did I not crave it, I didn’t want to eat badly either because I just put so much effort in and no way was I going to sabotage myself. 

The past few weeks have been very difficult because I was PMSing, and with that comes increased hormones (much more so as I’ve gotten older) that lead to all kinds of emotions. And well, I’m an emotional eater. But I just kept going and eating and tracking my food (Weight Watchers) and going to the support groups and working out with people I really enjoy and who support me. My trainer even told me to go off of carbs for a week which caused decreased energy and crankiness. But I did it. And you know what? I woke up this morning and weighed myself anyway even though I really thought I wasn’t going to like what I saw (I do it every week, same day, right after I get up) and to my surprise I’m finally under 150 pounds. Shock and happiness overcame me. You know why? Because after all that negative self-talk of “I can’t do this”, I was actually doing it! Seeing even a slight decrease made all the difference in my attitude. And when I actually did the math and saw how much I’ve lost since I’ve started this process, it’s been a whopping 11.8 pound weight loss thus far. I still have a ways to go, but hot damn I’m doing it!! What a difference a day makes. And as I’ve said before, some days I think I can, some days I think I can’t, but either way, I just keep doing. So, I say the same to you. Just keep doing. It also helps that I have wonderful people as support. So find your support system and do it. I swear it works, although not as fast as you may want it to. It’s a process, it’s a journey and you know what, I’ll get there when I get there. But I feel stronger and healthier than I have in a long time and I’m not even near the weight I was before. There really is something to living a healthy lifestyle to be healthy and not just to lose weight. Oh, and it helps to have a goal too. So, mine is Vegas at the end of July. Now, my goal isn't to have a perfect body, it's to get under a certain weight and body fat percentage. And as long as I just keep doing, I'm proud of myself because that in and of itself is a habit change for me and I'm so much happier because of it.